Bad decisions and gut feelings...

When you make a decision, you bare the consequences. But what if a decision you made turned bad and someone else had to bare the brunt of it? And what if that someone was your little precious?
Ok, so Saturday evening we decided to get out of the house for some fresh air. Daddy D decided on cycling at ECP n little boy was delighted as he's been asking to go for some time.
Before we became a family of 4, we'd usually get the tandem bike n have Sammy in the front. Now that we're 4 we had to hv another plan.
We had tried having baby in the front and toddler in the back once but there were complaints from the back after a while. Baby at the back only produced loud wails... Geez!
So this time daddy d suggested maybe mummy m should clear the rust on her biking skills and we'd each take one kid, on separate bikes.
Hmm, ok... I think I could try cycling again... But please God, dun let me fall! Please please please!! So off I went, practicing n wobbling very clumsily around.
Sammy was thrilled to see mummy on a bicycle and kept wanting to ride with me. But u had to get the hang of it first. Geez how come it was just so hard that I was starting to get annoyed with myself for wobbling so much!
But I sort of got the hang of it after sometime, much to the delight of daddy d who was watching with 2 lil monsters from the side.(he'd given up trying to cycle w 2 kids.
To cut the long story short, daddy d suggested i take Sammy for a ride on the other bike we had rented with the child seat behind. Ok, this was a bad idea... My gut feeling told me it was... But I didn't want to disappoint the happy boy and said ok. Who was i kidding... I strapped Sammy in at the back n got on and wobbled away, with a cheering passenger at the back."
I'm going down a slight slope n a kid got in our path. I tried my best to avoid him but lost my balance instead.
Oh the horror and time moved in slow motion as the bike came crashing down. In my mind I prayed Samuel would be fine!
I didn't feel the sting on my knees. I just needed to know he's ok! Nothing broken please please please! I got up n saw him on the safety seat! Thank God for that! Of coz he wailed. A cut on his lower lip and a bruised arm. I'd be mad at myself if it was anything worse! Sigh! What was I thinking!
Luckily he was fine...
Next time I'm listening to my gut feeling! :( no more stunts and rash decisions anymore!